Tonight, I had to do one of the saddest things I will ever have to do in my lifetime. I turned my back on someone I care about. I did it to save us both. It took a courage that I never knew I had and it will take all my strength to live with my decision. But it was the right thing to do.
I was being destroyed by someone who never really had my back because they were knowingly hurting me. Sometimes, for our own preservation, the best thing to do is to walk away and leave behind the things we value. I loved this person as my family despite all they did to bring me down, but I’d reached the absolute bottom and they were deliberately holding me back. If I’d have stayed in that place, we would have self-destructed together – me dying by the weight of their cruel hand and they succumbing to the immobility of pinning me down. I had no choice but to push them off and run away – for both our sakes.